aragorn: (That boy needs therapy)
Blues Drive Monster ([personal profile] aragorn) wrote2012-02-23 09:57 am
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So every so often, I get really crippling avoidance/anxiety about specific things, usually to do with university or occasionally job applications. In fact it is so specific that it's 99% of the time related to being afraid of checking my email or student portal. I have been caught in this bind in the past and always tell myself I won't be such a dumbarse about it next time, and yet it keeps happening. The most recent example of this is, I have been too afraid to check my results for my last class because... I don't know. Not fear of failing (although I did have one nightmare where I failed and THANKS A LOT SUBCONSCIOUS), but fear of my assessment not having been put through, or the grade just not being there, or any other multitude of things. Things that could in fact be solved by just sucking it up and checking the grade. And it is really dumb behaviour, particularly when my student ID expires on the 29th and then I wouldn't be able to check it at all. Not to mention I don't know what's happening with graduation; I assume I will be? But I've gotten no notification in the mail about it yet.

Anyway, suffice to say that I finally did man up and checked my grade, which was a) present and b) pretty good, as per usual. So here's to a month and a half of time-wasting anxiety.

Now all that remains is for the uni to give me my mortarboard and Masters degree in paper form. (And to avoid this avoidance thing when it comes to checking my email for job application statuses. I will not repeat you again, 2009, you sucked enough the first time.)

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